That old prison guard word
weaved sweet dipped lures
to my child. I could feel the
tension in my muscles. For
I want to say I love you
scream it from the
mountain top and whisper
it close to your skin so
that the heated words tattoo
my name into...
To the man who saw me
Happy when no one was looking;
For smiling, applauding
My joy for the right tune,
Persephone as a dark and off-putting goddess who worries her mother by hanging out with satyrs and making...
If you ask some you’ll hear tale,
Of how horrible I am,
How I frequently attack others over smallest faults,
How I batter them like a ram.
But how can it be that I attack,
When rarely do I speak?
Abuse taught me to internalize,
Rarely do my thoughts leak.
So why do I seem to some,
As a vile and savage beast?
One who kicks those while they’re down,
And has kittens for his nightly feast.
Truth be told I’m not so bad,
Maybe a little clumsy with my words,
And when I try to explain my lack of malice,
My explanations are unheard.
The mind likes to make itself a hero,
And likes to view the world in such a way,
Where they’re a survivor against impossible odds,
No matter what their “abusers” really did say.
I harbor no malice to anyone,
Unless they choose to strike me first,
But no one likes to see it that way,
They like to view me in the worst.